More uncertainty...

Well, it is St. Patrick's Day which means I have less than a month to decide if/where I will be going on to a PhD. Right now there is not much of a decision to be made. I have only been accepted to Buffalo which makes me very excited. The problem is that I have not received any funding yet. Without funding there is no way I can go. I also wasn't able to visit the campus during the visitation day due to finances (which are terrible right now, but that is another story). I also have not received the further information from Buffalo in the mail.
I'm really getting worried about the school situation. I still have not heard a word back from 5 schools. 5! Over half of the amount I have applied to. There was the really quick, demoralizing rejection from Washington (Feb. 14) featuring the great "I concur" line. Then came the uplifting news on Feb. 17 that I had been accepted to Buffalo and was at the top of the funding queue. Then silence which was broken on March 4 with my rejection to Oregon. Goodbye Pacific Northwest. Three days later came the very impersonal rejection from Texas in a tiny 1 paragraph blurb that I had to log in in order to see. Now again there is silence. It's driving me crazy. I'm trying not to check my email too often, but I can't stop myself. I've also become obsessed with gradcafe. The forums have been really quiet and the results section has given me some information: BU accepted two people on March 10, two people report Penn State rejected them Feb 11, one person stating Toronto accepted them on March 7. I don't know what to think. Does this mean I'll be rejected by BU? Did Penn State get my application or even look it over since it was 30 days late? Is the time line the same for Toronto and the joint phd with York? What about Brown or Rutgers? No news on either. Ah!
Good God, it is terrible. I'm trying my best not to worry, but it is so hard with how much this affects the future. If I can't go anywhere, I'll stay here and have no clue what I'm doing. We once thought of moving to Boston, but that no longer seems to be a scenario. There are no jobs here. I have no applicable skills. I'm hitting poverty levels and terrible debt. I have no health insurance. Did I mention that I am sick again, and this may be an infection which may drive me to a clinic tomorrow despite no insurance. This is not a fun post.